That is my first grey hair. Is that a milestone? Should I send it to my mom for a special place in my baby book?
I think no, but it does symbolize the beginning of a fascinating new chapter.
You see, I’ve been over here having my” Eat, Pray, Love” moment, except mine was more cry, talk, listen.
I longed for that magical phase in a woman’s life where she settles into herself and begins trusting her voice.
I believed it would arrive naturally in my 30’s.
I turn 40 in 19 short days, the clock was ticking. It was time to stop waiting and start working. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
The last 6 months have been dedicated to falling in love with Christine Coughlin, all of her. The good, the bitchy, the slightly odd and the super strange bits. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
It hasn’t been a simple shift. It’s required awkward conversations, listening to my body, my soul, and the little signs that appear consistently.
I’ve worked on re-training my brain and accepting my feelings.
I’ve explored the consuming guilt and shame that has stolen so much joy from my life. I’ve let go of the fear of being a cliche.
Shameful Little Secret
Giving my ”shameful little secrets” wings has been intensely therapeutic. It releases me from their power. The energy I used to spend on self-doubt is now free to flow in beautiful new directions.
I dream my girls will read about their mother’s journey one day, and it will help them feel less alone and a lot more connected to the woman who came before them. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
So, to answer my own question…Yes! Oversharing seems to be my mid-life crisis of choice. Although personally, I prefer the term mid-life awakening.
Either way, it’s cheaper than a red sports car.
What does your mid-life awakening look like?
Originally to Instagram on Dec 19, 2019