That is my first grey hair. Is that a milestone? Should I send it to my mom for a special place in my baby book? ⁣⁣
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I think no, but it does symbolize the beginning of a fascinating new chapter.⁣
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You see, I’ve been over here having my” Eat, Pray, Love” moment, except mine was more cry, talk, listen.
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⁣⁣I longed for that magical phase in a woman’s life where she settles into herself and begins trusting her voice.⁣⁣
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I believed it would arrive naturally in my 30’s.

Tick Tock

I turn 40 in 19 short days, the clock was ticking. It was time to stop waiting and start working. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⁣⁣
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The last 6 months have been dedicated to falling in love with Christine Coughlin, all of her. The good, the bitchy, the slightly odd and the super strange bits. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⁣⁣
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It hasn’t been a simple shift. It’s required awkward conversations, listening to my body, my soul, and the little signs that appear consistently. ⁣⁣
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I’ve worked on re-training my brain and accepting my feelings. ⁣⁣
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I’ve explored the consuming guilt and shame that has stolen so much joy from my life. I’ve let go of the fear of being a cliche.⁣

Shameful Little Secret

Giving my ”shameful little secrets” wings has been intensely therapeutic. It releases me from their power. The energy I used to spend on self-doubt is now free to flow in beautiful new directions.⁣⁣
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I dream my girls will read about their mother’s journey one day, and it will help them feel less alone and a lot more connected to the woman who came before them. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⁣⁣
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So, to answer my own question…Yes! Oversharing seems to be my mid-life crisis of choice. Although personally, I prefer the term mid-life awakening. ⁣⁣
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Either way, it’s cheaper than a red sports car.⁣⁣

What does your mid-life awakening look like?

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_{Originally to Instagram on Dec 19, 2019}